Monday, January 23, 2006

Cracking the Whip

I am stealing this title from Dy. In this morning's post, she was talking about getting back to work. Well, it is time for me to do that too. I will also try to do this in a way that isn't a to-do list, also per Dy's style.

This was suppopsed to be the year that I focused on myself. I didn't make resolutions, but had given some thought to how I wanted the year to go. Well, we are a month into it, and it hasn't gone as I had invisioned. Not because things have gone wrong, just because I haven't been living into what I want to be- lack of intention and planning on my part. I think if I have some goals, some ideas of what I really want to accomplish, that manifesting those things might be a bit easier. It doesn't preclude good hard work and integrity, but I think it might help. To be brutally honest, I have been very lazy. I really have no excuse- the kids are tweenagers now (how did that happen so fast?!), and are learning how to be integrity in their schoolwork, and need to chip in around the house on a regular basis. This gives me many more hours of the day to do with as I see fit, and so far, I have been wasting them, not accomplishing anything more than resting and getting used to not working. That was valuable for a short while, but isn't working any more.

I am working towards getting a job that will let me contribute to the family's income (albeit in a minor way), give me some time to be in the world without the kids, but will still allow me to focus most of my energies on them and the house. And YES! I did get the application materials to the library office today!! This is step one toward being the capable, productive person I want to be.

Second, I want to get healthy. I need to engage in exercise on a daily basis, rather thatn the 2 or 3 times a week I was managing. This means I need to plug in that TTapp DVD I bought 2 months ago and actually make time to do it. Make it a habit. I think I might have the kids join me once I get the hang of it. P.E. hasn't happened for them any more than it has for me.

I need to eat healthily, which means much less sugar and carbs, and following my allergy/food sensitivity diet (which I will honestly admit to not following for the last 9 months or so). I need to lose about 40 pounds. I don't want to DIET, just want to be living in a healthy way. I know from experience that the weight will come off if I do so, so do I will.

Let's see. What's next on my NOT A TO DO LIST? Time for myself to study, blog, make art, and just be. Right. That means getting up at 6 am every day. I am getting closer, as I usually manage 6:30, but as the kids get up at 6:45, that isn't enough time. This one is so very hard for me. I am not an early riser. But I do know it can be done, and similarly to eating right and exercising, I have done it before, and made it work, so I can choose it again! In addition to studying, which has gone by the wayside, I really want to focus on quilting. I have several unfinished projects that bother my conscience, and I want to get in there and do some art quiliting, as well. I need to find space in the basement in which to work, and develop a daily routine for doing so. This leads me to my next goal.

And that is to be is uncluttered. I won't go into details, but this house needs to be gone through with a fine tooth comb. There is junk in every room that needs to go. Bills and paperwork that needs to go in filing cabinets, and boxes that still need to be unpacked. When we moved into the Farmhouse, the pervious owner had died, so all his stuff was still here, and much of it still is. It is time to load up Whitey the minivan and make a trip to the dump. Maybe two trips.

I also want to paint. Actually, I don't want to paint. To be honest, I have a real story about painting. I HATE painting! It stinks and gives me a headache, it is messy, and it requires cleaning, prepping and cleanup. Ick. Ick. And Ick again. But, I am sick and tired of the horrible smoke stained walls, and the lack of cheery color. Papa will deny it if you ask him, but when we moved into the Farmhouse 2 years ago after 5+ years in a rental where the walls were all a boring white, he told me I could paint every wall a different color if I wanted to. And did I mention that his sister is a professional painter, and has left her color wheel with me? I have been walking through the house, looking at walls and imagining them in a rainbow of different shades. Pain in the butt or no, it looks like painting is in my future!

Well, that will do for now. That is a lot to be, and I know I can't do it all right off the bat at the same time, but just getting it down is a start.



mindy said...

You go, girl! I remember a long time ago meeting you on the WTM boards at 7:00 which was early for you, so you are making progress! Good job. I will tell you how great I have felt to be sugar/bad carb free. I have really felt good. I also am not thinking of it as a diet, but a healthy way of eating. You can do it! I'm looking forward to you posting pictures of some of your new art! Promise???

Happy Birthday to your dd, by the way.

Needleroozer said...

Yes, I should have written that down- that I want to figure out how to use the Boy's digital camera and start blogging with pictures.

Did you use a specific diet/plan to go no carbs, or just common sense. With all my allergies, I am not sure what I will be able to eat.

Needleroozer said...

And Mindy, I too, have an incessant talker. I have to work hard at not making him wrong for not being able to be quiet! I find having time to myself on a regular basis helps a great deal, as has going over rules of conversation etiquette.

Delaina said...

Wow, that quite a list! You can do it! You can do it!

I recently made a list similar to yours. I decided it was a little overwhelming to look at and read through, so then I prioritized. Some things I realized can be plugged away at, little by little. Some things, I just wanted done. So far, it's working. I'm accomplishing what I set out to do first. Things are getting done. We all have dentist and doctor appointments. Diesel is in obedience classes! ;-) Yeah! He needs it. LOL And I'm still workin on getting up earlier. That's a tough one for me. I have always been a night owl.

Ooh, quilting. I admire quilters. I scrapbook and long for hours to enjoy that hobby. I keep thinking that I will have more time when my munchkins get a bit older.

I do hope you accomplish much this year and that you can steadily begin to mark those things off your list.

About that painting-you pick the colors, I'll come paint for you.;-) I L-O-V-E to paint. I offered to help Dy paint her house, as well. It's like gardening to me. I love every aspect of it.

Have a great week!

Needleroozer said...

Well, you're on about the painting! How bout I make you a quilt, and you can come paint? Sound like a good trade? The barter system is well and alive, ya' know.

Dy said...

You can do it. I know you can. And I am so excited to hear about the results!